I want to feel content with where we are right now, but I can't help but feel like it would be nice to have some more space. It can be a little frustrating at times. Also, I have dreams about washer and dryers....no joke. I can't tell you how much I would like our own.....we pay so much to get clean towels. The worst part is I try to go as long as possible without washing and being the clean freak I am makes me a bit anxious.
Life is definitely getting harder...part of getting older I suppose. As we think about more space and having a family, we get flustered with how to afford somthing nice and reasonable. David currently works at an insurance company, but really hopes to find a teaching job. This is hard though because our finances will get even tighter since his salary will go down......definitely a sacrifice, but a worthy one. He just loves teaching and misses it, but I will admit its hard for me to think about things getting tighter!
I'm the first to admit that money brings me intense worry and anxiety. I've always been like that, but I'm learning how to trust the Lord with this. It makes me sad how little I make God most of the time. He laughs at my worries since he will provide what we need. Most of the time I want what we don't need. I just love to compare our situation to others....which only makes my heart more frusterated. Do I fight against comparing....more often than not I don't. I want a house, and kids, a sweet kitchen, washer/drying....the list continues. I need to give these things to the Lord and recognize my joy and satisfaction comes from trusting in him and what he has done for me. Truth really does set you free....free from anxiety, anger, discontentment and comparing. This is hard and requires a repentent heart....which without the spirit is so difficult.
Its a battle for me to trust the Lord for things. I really like to rely on myself and others for my joy. So as we think and pray about what our future has for us, I want to choose to be thankful for a warm home and food to eat. We are so much more blessed than I will ever realize.
In other news, its my grandmothers 95th birthday today! Talk about good genes :) She is in North Dakota in a nursing home and my dad is visiting her this week. She recently broke her hip and had surgery to replace it. Since then they moved her to the nursing home. I hate being so far away from her and miss her dearly. She is petite and has one of the best personalities I know! I have so many great memories of spending time with her and the radical things she says. Not to mention the amazing home videos of Helen saying and doing crazy things. I feel like most of my personality has come from her in that she is introverted, worries about everything, and frets about how things are organized. More than anything I love that I look like her and look forward to having white hair when I'm her age. I love Grandma Helen :)
Here are two of my favorite commercials. The first is a commercial that was on awhile ago and makes me think about our situation right now. The other is great because its the reason I hate cell phones so much.....I really wish I didn't have to have one.
Hope you all have a wonderful weekend!
ps. Golf and Ice Skating are on right now.....we're watching ice skating :) HA!
David reminded me of this commercial and how much we loved it! So I thought I would share! Enjoy!
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